If you are at all interested in your own development, or searching for how to move forward
[or even just trying to work out which direction that is]
I think this letter by Hunter S Thompson is about as good as it gets in describing your challenge and options.
There are so many quotable sections, but I’ll limit myself to one:
So if you now number yourself among the disenchanted, then you have no choice but to accept things as they are, or to seriously seek something else. But beware of looking for goals: look for a way of life. Decide how you want to live and then see what you can do to make a living WITHIN that way of life. But you say, “I don’t know where to look; I don’t know what to look for.”
And there’s the crux. Is it worth giving up what I have to look for something better? I don’t know — is it? Who can make that decision but you? But even by DECIDING TO LOOK, you go a long way toward making the choice.
If you are close to deciding to look, I can help – contact me.
If you know someone else who needs help making the decision, refer them. I will do my best to serve them as they emerge into their ninth path
[you read it, right? You know what a ninth path is, right? Right?!]